World Suicide Prevention Day was September 10th. I may be a little behind but it’s never too late to spread awareness about this topic.
When I was a teenager, I lost my best friend and first love when he took his own life. I knew he was struggling and I knew he was contemplating suicide. But I didn’t tell anyone.
We were both lost
We both came from difficult backgrounds and I think that’s why we bonded so quickly. Neither of us had ever had anyone we could talk to about where we came from.
We use to have conversations about what we thought death would be like and we had a pact that if one of us ever decided to end it, the other would too.
A few months after I moved away, I got the call. And I couldn’t hold up my end of the deal.
It took a long time for me to let go of that guilt.
Sixteen years after that phone call, I found myself on the verge of finally making good on my promise.
I was a single mother with four little boys to care for and I cracked under the pressure.
The depression I had been trying to supress for too many years, finally got the better of me and I was making preparations for my final goodbye.
She saved my life
Thankfully, a concerned family member stepped in. She saved my life. I don’t know if I ever thanked her. I need to do that.
This is why it’s important for me to spread awareness and why I observe World Suicide Prevention Day. Because if someone close to me hadn’t noticed, if they hadn’t taken action, I might not be here today.
If I had spoke up way back then, maybe one more teen would have made it to adulthood and one more mother would still have their child.
Don’t make the same mistake I did. Know the signs. Speak up. And spread awareness about suicide prevention.
You are not alone, there is hope.
If you need help or know someone who may, visit the Suicide Prevention Lifeline website.